February 2010
11 posts
“Why is that no matter how much PAIN it endures by HOLDING ON, the HEART refuses...”
– LLDB
Funny Day
All day long I spent it with Mr Sam’s farm. He’s funny guy. He’s wise yet funny.
You wonder why? I put a rock that shapes like an egg on the kitchen. He thought it was an egg and he put it along with the rice to make a boiled egg. When he was done, he crack the egg but it didn’t open. He keep cracking it when I arrive and I said “what are you doing with my...
Playing with the kids
Fun playing with kids…
Though they are quite jumping and running, they stop when I played my violin. I love kids. I adore them a lot. Though some guys who volunteer are not quite fond as I am, at least the kids enjoy my presence. They are kids who believe they can still live. Cancer patients who are happy and believing they still have tomorrow, while I got none. I met kids who got...
Feb 15... 831
Nothing much to do today…
I just had my visit to the beach again. Watching the sunset. It was a nice horizon. I was there til twilight, with my two dogs and we just found out today my Crissy is pregnant. What a nice day today is. Of course, I remember this day should be our 11 months… Funny ay, but what a harsh reality it is. I will have my brain operation on the 15 of March, 2010 and...
“Death can be an answer to someone’s pain, death is peaceful to a human...”
– LLDB
My Valentine
Loveless is the word…
It’s been 2 valentines that passes me by with no one to be with but only myself. It’s not a trouble actually. It’s quite fun. Eating cookies with my puppies. My bestfriend is somewhere right now. My brother is actually happy. I wish them all their best. I’m just here with my laptop, writing to occupy myself. I may be undergoing some therapy...
My Thoughts...
My psychiatrist told me to write something and so it can release my stress. He told me to write what’s on my head to feel better. So here it goes…
I’m thinking of death. I am dying. I don’t know but it’s on my head for that past few months since I knew about my situation. I wanted to die right now if I can. But I guess I’m waiting for it to come by. He’s...
